7 things that make me sad

1. You only want to kiss me when

you're high—which is all the time—

but it still makes my throat tight.

2. I don't remember what it's like to sleep,

no matter how many times I told you

I was going to bed.

3. I shake when you touch me.

You are everything I hate and

everything I need.

4. Who cares how high I fill the bathwater

when I'm already in over my head?

5. I'd let you kill me all over again

if it meant kissing you one more time.

6. Do you remember the first time you

stayed the night and you held me so tightly

we melted into each other? I'm still peeling

bits of you off my skin.

7. You told me you needed Light

so I set myself on fire.