The Things I Don't Talk About

1. Three weeks ago, I moved into a house on Cabell.

Today I cried because I am afraid of getting older.

I just want to feel safe again.

2. In my dreams, you are different,

and I forgive you.

3. I wonder if I like the girl I am becoming...

I wonder if it's too late to change.

4. Sometimes I just want my first kiss back.

5. The last time we talked was at a party.

You were drunk and I was sober.

It isn't fair that your life looks the same

when I am a shell of the person I used to be.

6. I woke up in the middle of the night

and almost screamed because

I didn't recognize either of us anymore.

7. Last April, everything was different —

proof that some happinesses are too good

to last.

8. I can't even look at the night sky

without feeling like I'm choking.

9. Most days I feel lost.

(I'm afraid to tell anyone that.)